Spring cleaning and organization-part 1

For a long time I have been trying to get organized  - my home! my life ! And its still certainly a mess.
I have come to point that I have dragged it long enough and I am tired of scapegoating. No organization is making me miserable!

I am sure everyone has one of these days that the chaos of unorganized life and home get to you, if you are like me, I suppose. 
My house is fairly tidy but I have a bad habit of cluttering corners. It happens when I have to quickly clean up the table or counter tops I put away all the stuff in a corner cupboard or draws. And this piles on - my husband calls it my very own coopai toothi - meaning my little dustbin! I believe I have one in every room now. Its the reason for spring cleaning.

Spring cleaning is daunting to me - mostly because I just don't know where to start. I begin a room, and I find more clutter and lot of things out of place, I get overwhelmed and frustrated and I give up!

I love an organized home, that there is a place for every little thing. Therefore I am going to appeal to my innerself to pull on and get this done. Pinterest has been my source of inspiration. I  found some wonderful sites that will help me forge on. I'll share them here :

http://amybayliss.com

http://www.modernparentsmessykids.com

http://delightfulorder.blogspot.co.uk

I have a long way to go!! Wish me good luck!!

Resolutions part 2

So the previous list is my feasible one, simple and not complicated,achievable. But I do say that I want to do alot more, maybe wont to do it all  this year..and if I do its just kudos to me.. Yeah!!!.but its no harm noting my over the top resolution list or maybe I can call the bucket list ... No pressure...So here it goes:

1. A marathon-most likely not going to happen this year but I'll start with the 5k and work myself upwards. ( Regret side note: I should have done this when I was in high school cross country runner. Now gotta start from the very beginning. Bag humbug!

2. Travel-hopefully some of Europe this year.

3. Learn lip reading and sign language. (I am partially deaf so I do need this if I completely lose my hearing.)

4.I want to learn a European language maybe French or Spanish.

5.Volunteer in my community,meet and help do some fun projects for a good cause.

6.Learn sewing -my hubby is getting me a sewing machine so that's a start.

7.I want to join a dance class and have fun.

8. I want to expand my family -one or two more kids and a family dog. Definitely not going to happen this year but hoping next year.

That's what I have got for now but  my bucket list is always an expanding one!!! So will update as I go along....now I just need to get started with the simple list!

2013 Here I Come

So here I am a two months too late for doing this new year resolutions..typical procrastinator...but here I go.....I am gonna keep this simple...nothing too complicated and over zealous.

1. Spring cleaning and getting house  and life organized.
2. Make some new mommy friends so my toddler baby has friends.
3. Exercise and lose some weight
4. Get a creative hobby
5. Keep blogging
6. Try some new recipes
7. Find a job

Okay this should do for now. It will keep me busy and get my act together.
miss reclusive mum

my little baby girl

My little baby girl !! She is already 8 months old and its hard to believe that the months have passed by so quickly. I still remember the day she was born. We were just the two of us for the those three days on the labor ward. She looked at me with those mesmerizing eyes and stole my heart. Being mommy is hard work, the first month was excruciating, the first time parents that we were, we didn't know zilch. Its been a while since its been like that. Just when things were going beautifully, the routine, eating solids and sleeping at night, I thought things were getting perfect. Until one day she threw up and then there was the diarrhoea, and the night was crazier, she would wake up every hour an half in pain and cry cry. Its almost heartbreaking to see her cry in pain. It made me cry as well coz I felt helpless not being able to help her. But she has gotten better, she still has some disturbed sleep on some nights but we are getting there. Yes these two months have been grueling but I have to say within these months she also reached some milestones. She began sitting and now she is crawling and curiously exploring room after room. During the day she is quite upbeat and that I am happy about. Here is she now

My baby is ill :( some hard times

Last week has been quite difficult ,my little one had diarrhea and has kept me up all nite. I took her to the health visitor got some derolyte, hope she feels better soon. Today to the GP,hope they find the reason coz i have been racking up brain to what set it. I think its due to her teething but got to see after the stool test results are in. Its quite scary when your child falls sick and you feel u can't do anything . Its really. A hopeless feeling.Our routine has gone haywired and she has refuses to eat her solids. Sometimes i wished i had some help looking after. Doing it all by myself ,yes hubby is around but he is busy with work. There are days when its just wonderful with my little one but now since she turned 8months she has been clingy and crying for every small thing. She even wakes up at nite and cries if she doesn't get her way. Sometimes i can't cope but  i need to find a way. Can't wait till we move out of here in may i need to change things for both of us so we can be much happier. Wishing myself all the luck!

Looking forward to the weekend:)

Lots of things are coming together....and thus reason to look forward  for this weekend.

So things that made me happy...this week ...i got my hubby the perfect gift for his 30th birthday!! We rarely go over with presents for each other birthdays. But this is his 30th and I think he is really amazing so got him his first  aircraft lesson experience. So this Sunday he is gonna have his first fly and I am just so excited about it. The other reason I am happy is that we got the apartment we wanted to rent, there were several hours and we were skeptical but it finally came through. And this means shopping for furniture and thinking of interior decorating our new place so really can't wait for tomorrow. And not to forget this sunday will be my first mother's day as a mommy. Couldn't be happier!!!

Few bad day feelings...

i think i have become a recluse, so much so that  I feel I don’t know if I communicate with people as well and they don’t understand me. Nowadays it terrifies because I don’t come across as composed I should i have all these tiny fear for the littlest things and i think i need to change. Just the other day, we were looking for apartments/houses
We are going to be moving soon and looked for apartments /houses we liked on the computer. My husband asked me to book the viewing  with the agents and I couldn’t get myself to call them to book the viewing since I was afraid how I would sound. Anticipating that the call is worst, I did call and I wasn’t understood, tried calling again and I was hung up. My self esteem i think has reached the lowest point and I question myself on every little thing. I should say to myself ‘I think I can’ but I don’t. Very negative I am.Just have had a few bad and low days...hope its only a passing phase!