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Thursday, March 15, 2012

Looking forward to the weekend:)

Lots of things are coming together....and thus reason to look forward  for this weekend.

So things that made me happy...this week ...i got my hubby the perfect gift for his 30th birthday!! We rarely go over with presents for each other birthdays. But this is his 30th and I think he is really amazing so got him his first  aircraft lesson experience. So this Sunday he is gonna have his first fly and I am just so excited about it. The other reason I am happy is that we got the apartment we wanted to rent, there were several hours and we were skeptical but it finally came through. And this means shopping for furniture and thinking of interior decorating our new place so really can't wait for tomorrow. And not to forget this sunday will be my first mother's day as a mommy. Couldn't be happier!!!

Monday, March 12, 2012

Few bad day feelings...

i think i have become a recluse, so much so that  I feel I don’t know if I communicate with people as well and they don’t understand me. Nowadays it terrifies because I don’t come across as composed I should i have all these tiny fear for the littlest things and i think i need to change. Just the other day, we were looking for apartments/houses
We are going to be moving soon and looked for apartments /houses we liked on the computer. My husband asked me to book the viewing  with the agents and I couldn’t get myself to call them to book the viewing since I was afraid how I would sound. Anticipating that the call is worst, I did call and I wasn’t understood, tried calling again and I was hung up. My self esteem i think has reached the lowest point and I question myself on every little thing. I should say to myself ‘I think I can’ but I don’t. Very negative I am.Just have had a few bad and low days...hope its only a passing phase!