my little baby girl

My little baby girl !! She is already 8 months old and its hard to believe that the months have passed by so quickly. I still remember the day she was born. We were just the two of us for the those three days on the labor ward. She looked at me with those mesmerizing eyes and stole my heart. Being mommy is hard work, the first month was excruciating, the first time parents that we were, we didn't know zilch. Its been a while since its been like that. Just when things were going beautifully, the routine, eating solids and sleeping at night, I thought things were getting perfect. Until one day she threw up and then there was the diarrhoea, and the night was crazier, she would wake up every hour an half in pain and cry cry. Its almost heartbreaking to see her cry in pain. It made me cry as well coz I felt helpless not being able to help her. But she has gotten better, she still has some disturbed sleep on some nights but we are getting there. Yes these two months have been grueling but I have to say within these months she also reached some milestones. She began sitting and now she is crawling and curiously exploring room after room. During the day she is quite upbeat and that I am happy about. Here is she now

My baby is ill :( some hard times

Last week has been quite difficult ,my little one had diarrhea and has kept me up all nite. I took her to the health visitor got some derolyte, hope she feels better soon. Today to the GP,hope they find the reason coz i have been racking up brain to what set it. I think its due to her teething but got to see after the stool test results are in. Its quite scary when your child falls sick and you feel u can't do anything . Its really. A hopeless feeling.Our routine has gone haywired and she has refuses to eat her solids. Sometimes i wished i had some help looking after. Doing it all by myself ,yes hubby is around but he is busy with work. There are days when its just wonderful with my little one but now since she turned 8months she has been clingy and crying for every small thing. She even wakes up at nite and cries if she doesn't get her way. Sometimes i can't cope but  i need to find a way. Can't wait till we move out of here in may i need to change things for both of us so we can be much happier. Wishing myself all the luck!

Looking forward to the weekend:)

Lots of things are coming together....and thus reason to look forward  for this weekend.

So things that made me happy...this week ...i got my hubby the perfect gift for his 30th birthday!! We rarely go over with presents for each other birthdays. But this is his 30th and I think he is really amazing so got him his first  aircraft lesson experience. So this Sunday he is gonna have his first fly and I am just so excited about it. The other reason I am happy is that we got the apartment we wanted to rent, there were several hours and we were skeptical but it finally came through. And this means shopping for furniture and thinking of interior decorating our new place so really can't wait for tomorrow. And not to forget this sunday will be my first mother's day as a mommy. Couldn't be happier!!!

Few bad day feelings...

i think i have become a recluse, so much so that  I feel I don’t know if I communicate with people as well and they don’t understand me. Nowadays it terrifies because I don’t come across as composed I should i have all these tiny fear for the littlest things and i think i need to change. Just the other day, we were looking for apartments/houses
We are going to be moving soon and looked for apartments /houses we liked on the computer. My husband asked me to book the viewing  with the agents and I couldn’t get myself to call them to book the viewing since I was afraid how I would sound. Anticipating that the call is worst, I did call and I wasn’t understood, tried calling again and I was hung up. My self esteem i think has reached the lowest point and I question myself on every little thing. I should say to myself ‘I think I can’ but I don’t. Very negative I am.Just have had a few bad and low days...hope its only a passing phase!

Fried Tuna Fish Cake Recipe

I am certainly not a great cook. I do try but at times I don’t have the patience for it. Since I have the time on my hands I decided that I needed to put an additional effort  in my cooking.  I believe I have become better. And this is one of my husband favorites. As an indian household we eat it with rice and rasam...its really yum!

fried tuna fish cake recipe


1 Onion
1 chili
5 small potatoes or 2 medium sized potatoes
1 tsp chili powder
1/2 tsp turmeric powder

salt 

1 tsp flour

1 egg
I can tuna fish

Oil

1.Chop the onions and the chilli

2. Boil the potatoes  and mash them in a bowl.

3. Add the chopped onions , chill, turmeric powder, chilli powder, salt, flour and tuna fish in the bowl and mix it all well.

4. Make the mixture in small cutlet mounds. Keep aside.

5. Meanwhile place a pan on the stove and add oil so it just covers the base of the pan. 

6. Whisk one egg in a bowl.  Take the cutlets and dip it in the egg and place it on the pan.

7. Once fried on onside turnover and fry the other. Repeat for all cutlet.