i think i have become a recluse, so much so that I feel I don’t know if I communicate with people as well and they don’t understand me. Nowadays it terrifies because I don’t come across as composed I should i have all these tiny fear for the littlest things and i think i need to change. Just the other day, we were looking for apartments/houses
are going to be moving soon and looked for apartments /houses we liked
on the computer. My husband asked me to book the viewing with the
agents and I couldn’t get myself to call them to book the viewing since I
was afraid how I would sound. Anticipating that the call is worst, I
did call and I wasn’t understood, tried calling again and I was hung up.
My self esteem i think has reached the lowest point and I question
myself on every little thing. I should say to myself ‘I think I can’ but
I don’t. Very negative I am.Just have had a few bad and low days...hope
its only a passing phase!